Month: June 2014

How did Mosaic of Introspections come about?

It started off as an long-term assignment that my English teacher, Mr. Theriault gave to the class at the beginning of the school year. I remember the mutual excitement my good friend Miriam and I had. We decided to work together because we had the same ideas on how we wanted our blog to be like. Several of our classmates based their blog on one subject or one theme. Miriam and I decided we wanted our blog to be broad. We wanted to be able to write about anything, and everything.

Although it was an assignment, it didn’t feel like one to me. I’ve always wanted to write. To just let my words freely flow, one after another…I saw that this blog was the perfect opportunity for me to do so. However, schoolwork after schoolwork piled upon me. My mind was clouded by stress and worries. I didn’t have an exact idea in mind as to what I wanted to write. I didn’t know where to start either. I couldn’t come up with the right words. I started on new posts but ended up trashing them or saving them as drafts. I went through my published posts and deleted several because I simply didn’t like them. I felt as though it just didn’t fully reveal what I had in mind. Finally and fortunately, the weary, tense days are over. I can sit down and spend as much time as I want pouring out what I have longed to share for quite some time.

Now, I want to talk about why do we write, and why do I write.

“Do we write because we have something to say? Do we write because we have to? Maybe we write because we have the talent to do so, or maybe we write because we can.”

To me, the power of writing makes it incredibly beautiful. We are able to share the depths of our thoughts and our inner most feelings through just words. Even something that is simple can really speak for others and people can come to really know us through reading our work.

Within writings, words say it all.

“A story, a moment, a feeling, a thought, is forever remembered if it is written down.”

Written words are there to stay, and to always have effect.  Reading words and hearing them are totally different for that when we read stories, we live their worlds, we become the words we read, our imagination runs free, not limited by other senses of vision, touch, hearing, or even smell.

I write because my words help me make sense of all that is around me and within me. My words speak for me when my actions can’t. With my words, I can connectand I feel connected to others.

Writing has forced me to come up with the right words to describe my own thoughts and emotions, which has always been challenging to do. However, it has helped me become more efficient in expressing myself. Acquiring profundity by digging through the depths of my mind, I have come to know myself better. I now fully understand my own thoughts and the motives behind them.

Judging by judging

“Claiming that someone else’s choices are against your preferences is like being angry at someone for eating a doughnut because you’re on a diet.”

Okay honestly, I fell into utter agreement with this quote the moment I read it. I think it does a great job emphasizing on how we are so judgmental.

I’d like to start off with pointing out the fact that we judge someone or something everyday without noticing! It seems as if it’s impossible to go through a day without a single critical thought occurring.

What makes us judgmental comes from the fact that we are familiar and we become comfortable with our own ideas and beliefs. Once we hear or see something foreign to us, we deem it to be insignificant simply because of a gap of indifference.

We like to put all of people’s different characteristics together into one box and then we set our own standards and expectations to how we think they should be. If they don’t meet up to our preferences, we automatically discard it as frivolous.

When we judge others, we tend to attribute their actions to their personalities rather than to the variables in the specific situation. For example, if someone cuts in line, we will tend to see that person as selfish or insensitive. Although when we cut in line, we will have the situational need very clear in our heads. “I am in a hurry and I need to do it just this once!” -Gregg Henriques

Judging, however, is not human nature like most say it is. It’s just common. Despite the hardships of overcoming this common attitude, I think it’s important we should try to keep in mind several points when evaluating someone’s actions or personality. First, we should figure out where one’s actions, thoughts, or personality came from. Whether it be from their own perspective, beliefs, values, or experiences, they are all what contributed to the current situation. Second, we must understand. We mustn’t be so quick to judge the outer look of it. How can it be right of us to jump to conclusions without diving through the depths of one’s inner most thoughts to experience their experiences? Third, if we can be more open minded towards the people and the things in our lives, we will feel at peace because we’re letting go of clinging to the way we want people to be.

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-Michelle

Self-Reflection

The dots that I have come to connect today are…

  1. There are things in life not worth making a big deal out of. Rethink the situation, figure out why it bothered you in the first place, and determine where its importance stands.
  2. Refrain from jumping to conclusions. Don’t assume; be sure to get clarifications if you are unsure. Doing this would enable you to avoid misunderstanding, and also to avoid the unspoken happiness that is unknown to the other person.
  3. Trust is fundamental to life. If you cannot trust, life becomes intolerable—a battle against constant doubt and looming disaster. A lack of trust can tear down even your strongest emotions, feelings or beliefs.
  4. There will be a point in life where even the people you are the most fond of, can irritate you deep into your skin and upset you in a way that is astonishing to you because you never thought it was possible of them to do so for that you deem them as your greatest source of happiness. The goal here though, is not to let that weaken the relationships and close bonds you have set with that person. You must keep in mind why you stood by that person in the first place, and what can you do to avoid a situation like that from happening again.
  5. If you are to change yourself, change yourself only for the better. Don’t change yourself so that you could consider yourself an adequate contestant for a person’s preferences and likings.
  6. “Just because I don’t laugh as much doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy your company.” 

Right. What made me even think that the scale of which a person likes you is based on how good you are at telling silly jokes? There is so much more to youas a person, that makes YOU what someone adores so greatly. When you are with someone, you DON’T always need endless conversations or constant laughters. The presence of one another speaks the loudest and the loveliest already.

Lots of love,

Michelle

According to a dictionary, fear is to avoid or put off doing something because one is afraid.

To me, I think that is the most accurate definition because it rightfully puts the role of fear in our lives into perspective.

How many opportunities have we allowed to pass by us because of fear? How many times have we said “no” to what could turn out to be the most extraordinary of our lives, because of fear? Is it because when we are fearful, we let circumstances dictate our actions?

Scientists would explain fear is caused by a series of reactions in the brain that are triggered by a stressful stimulus. I don’t believe fear can be fully explained through scientific means, I’m sure there is a more psychological sense to it. Now, why does fear exist? What is the purpose of fear? “Fear exist in our life for us to overcome. Fear exist to allow us to grow.” 

For me, fear is what I feel when I am under the notion of not believing I am fulfilling my potential or when I discern myself as being insignificant. However, it is that fear that serves as a driven force, it is that of which propels me towards growing out of the walls I am confined within. It assembles my weaknesses into strengths, my goals into plans.

It has come to my realization that I don’t want to be bound by fear. I want to make sure that the choices I make are based upon the depths of my desire to achieve greatness. I want my choices to be made out of pure confidence and built upon my own aspirations. I don’t want to be subordinate to my fear, allowing it to influence me in altering my choices in order to avoid doing something I think I am not able to do.

“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.” -Nelson Mandela

Lots of love,

Michelle